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lines:right through your heart by alaisiaga lines:right through your heart :iconalaisiaga:alaisiaga 5 3
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CoLaS 1: Understand. :iconalaisiaga:alaisiaga 0 23
only sleeping
my own ritual of coaxing
the sun from drift-bound night
through stone & blood
(my december suicides are killing me);
each time is a forever, broken
course of returning footpads
every eternity darker yet--
each forever longer still--
always less and less and less makes it back and
now so whole
these flat words are hollow
echoes on the altar
but let's call it hibernation.
we'll spread false comfort with that age-old
lie at the side of the road:
we'll claim all this only slumbers under snows
furled like a fiddlehead
waiting to be
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want for nothing
For the first time, I can see the sky.
There's just as many stars as there are meant to be.
All these moments running on through our grasp
we can't reclaim,
and that's all right.
Something close to peace, (the strength to send you on.)
When hope was gone, (discovered anew.)
This darkness soft. (It's right, this time.)
You shiver tight.. (Goodbye, this time.)
I want for nothing
in this world, or the next
if there is, I don't need it anymore.
These constellations
that cry promise of a winter
that will come once again, always before.
For the last time, I will hold this sky:
I'll forget the names, the forms I'll never know.
I taste the snow and the tears that won't fall.
What's done is done.
What's done is gone.
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Walking before the dawn,
sleeping with hems of dew.
The stars and the wind in my hair.
You always knew what I needed.
I should have said something,
but I never felt I needed.
The echoes of your veins,
the tides of your breath.
When I listened then,
that was all I knew.
And it was something close to happiness,
some way close to you.
I think you knew. You always knew.
Scared of letters. That word, close to breaching.
So I let it be. We didn't need it.
The rain we never minded, because we knew it was needed.
(The light caught us unaware, our plans and fears and traded scars.)
The end of the world came and went, no one around to see it.
(This new-washed sky was ours alone, still morning kept in a bell jar,)
held tightly for a time we never thought would come and need it.
(Hold tightly now; hard enough to make me feel)
Those crystalled moments you meant to me,
I dust them off, display them here.
We had time; just not enough.
Never enough.
:iconalaisiaga:alaisiaga 1 2
This isn't something new; I'm just finishing what they started,
breaking off pieces of my soul with their every touch.
It wouldn't last forever, I couldn't last forever.
And you said you understand
when I shared the jagged nothing, all that remains
you held me like you felt its pull as well.
Not as deep; no, they, they have not shattered you yet.
You close your eyes to escape from the hell of everyday;
but when they take that from you,
that's how you know they've won.
I think you understand
I can't be here anymore.
Everything is come undone.
Don't want to feel anymore.
And I am sorry; I don't want to leave you,
and I hope you'll understand.
The air is thicker now, choked with every second that's passed.
They weigh on me: these memories, abandoned dreams, these regrets.
Stutter my pulse, skip my breath.
Each of these things that will never come to be...
I never knew that nothing
could crush me all so well.
I think you understand
I can't stay with you anymore.
Promises won't hold me here
:iconalaisiaga:alaisiaga 2 5
winter is bad enough without
this isn't your season, my love;
(so very)
spring's hesitant promises
would suit you, perhaps:
their summer affirmation,
even their fulfillment in fall.
(thought maybe)
but winter chases breath from your lungs
and clutches tight against its return;
the snows hold captive even
movements of the stars
in ice-sheathed branches
that rend the clouds;
feather-born retreat
with dawn over their shoulders,
cutting above currents that
stop these flutter-tiny hearts
(tried, i)
you have no means to fly
before the chillblained night--
&i cannot even stand myself
against winds heavy with the press
of years of gelid words
(i'm sorry)
this just isn't our season, my love.
:iconalaisiaga:alaisiaga 3 10
these laws that bind our feet to earth,
fix clouds far above our heads,
set flames wheeling in their timeless persuasion--
you brush away like so many shards of glass;
they glitter with your disregard
order i knew (i thought); yet
you will not be classified.
so i am left cradling remnants of frayed equations,
contaminated fragments of theorems,
sheaves of cross-referenced erasures,
and only
this oath from ashes:
i will dissect you,
see through to the cogs that turn your heart;
i will comprehend you,
spin words from the fabric of the dark behind your eyes
and hypothesize your soul
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Ash Lang
United States
illegal in all 50 states (and three canadian provinces).

Current Residence: Severna Park, Maryland
Favourite genre of music: see above
Favourite style of art: Anime/manga
Operating System: Linux (Ubuntu and/or Debian)
MP3 player of choice: xmms, iPod
Shell of choice: Fluxbox, KDE
Favourite cartoon character: BT from .hack//SIGN

i need a scanner. advise me.

Journal Entry: Sat Jan 1, 2011, 2:55 PM
awaiting word on what's to come.

first and foremost: anyone have any scanner recommendations/brands to stay away from?  my hp all-in-one printer is kicking its tiny plastic legs in the air, but i'm thinking i don't quite want another all-in-one, because really, all they do is suck at all things at once.  hard.  and i would vastly prefer something that can do 9"x12" at the very least.  pondering mustek (like… ), but considering the terrible things i hear about their software, i'm leery about how nicely the twain would play with gimp.

so! it's apparently 2011.
how's that working out for you?

right now i am watching/listening to opeth's lamentations concert dvd (which is really, really, really making me want a schecter) and finishing a comic i started over a year ago and currently have 75+ panels of drawn.  i'm contemplating how much i want to redraw, but thinking i may just finish it first, and then go from there.

i'm writing music.  i haven't been able to sing for two weeks, but i've figured out fingerpicking well enough to possibly fake people out into thinking i can actually play guitar.  i may post listenable musicalthings.  we'll see.

all in all: things are pretty much okay.  may actually get my webcomic up again soon, once i actually get my domain name back.  in the meantime, i've Things in the works.  and even while i'm working on those, i may ink/scan some rediscovered linearts.

  • Listening to: "closure" by opeth
  • Reading: michael ende's "the neverending story"
  • Watching: soul eater
  • Playing: baroque
  • Eating: something close to healthy
  • Drinking: water


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BigMac1212 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy birthday! :cake:
BigMac1212 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy birthday!
IslandWriter Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2011  Student Writer
I know you haven't been around deviantART for a while, but still thought I'd say: haaaappy birthday :party: :glomp:

IslandWriter Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Writer
And happy birthday for 2012 too :aww:
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