understand

This isn't something new; I'm just finishing what they started,
breaking off pieces of my soul with their every touch.
It wouldn't last forever, I couldn't last forever.

And you said you understand
when I shared the jagged nothing, all that remains
you held me like you felt its pull as well.
Not as deep; no, they, they have not shattered you yet.

You close your eyes to escape from the hell of everyday;
but when they take that from you,
that's how you know they've won.

I think you understand
I can't be here anymore.
Everything is come undone.
Don't want to feel anymore.
And I am sorry; I don't want to leave you,
and I hope you'll understand.

The air is thicker now, choked with every second that's passed.
They weigh on me: these memories, abandoned dreams, these regrets.
Stutter my pulse, skip my breath.

Each of these things that will never come to be...
I never knew that nothing
could crush me all so well.

I think you understand
I can't stay with you anymore.
Promises won't hold me here,
their words just wound all the more.
And I'm so sorry this is how I leave you.
I need you to understand.

I open my mouth to speak;
each time I bleed myself dry.
I accept it: nothing will change.
Hope is the cruelest lie.

Please say you understand;
I can't hold on anymore.
Nothing's right; nothing makes sense.
Don't know what's real anymore.
And please forgive me if this hurts you..

So I hope you understand.